i just feel like plonking myself down on a bed. grab a pillow and scream my lungs out before crying my heart out. ill become a total alien. brain-less, lung-less and heart-less. and i don't really care. cause thats just plain what i want to do.

im drained. both physically and emotionally. and im deeply hurt. what has come over you? i've never seen you this way before. i know you're not perfect, but... you weren't this bad last time. i never expected something like this to ever have to happen right before my eyes. its just hurting. we're all trying to help you. and what you're doing? throwing temper tantrums at us. and i know you wont see this blog post. cause i bet you don't even know my blog URL. but i don't care. i just need to let it all out. i... i... i care so much about you, you know. we all care so much about you. i REALLY don't want to see you being sent to a boys home. i don't want anything bad to happen. i want you to be that little brother i always had. i don't want to see you change. why? what made you this way? WHATS WRONG WITH YOU? you see me cry, but you never knew i was crying for you, did you? i don't want to have to give up on you. so go back. become the person you were. for me? please?

hello peoples. hahah. im sitting in the computer lab now. its like. im remembering like last time, when we used to come in here everyday. i mean. sec1 seems like just yesterday. and now we're in sec3. haii. the last time i came in here to play, is just so unbelievable. we used to stay back everyday in school for fun. now, we have no choice but to stay in school, cause we have like all kinds of weird things every single day. like. band. and. now even MEP is after school. hahah. its kinda interesting la. how we stay back in school every single day of our lives. hahah... and. and. i saw a report in the newspaper. IN section i think. that it proves that people who stay in school longer live longer. so i guess we will live long! hahah... and now im back in the library board... retarded afterschool 3hours every tuesday... and tuesday was supposed to be studying day! hahah. ohwells. i guess im like stuck in it now. cant get out of it.
and i think i better go off now. MEP is starting in about 3 minutes. byebyeeee! see you later (:

wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~ HELLO EVERYONE! hows school been? hahah. i was supposed to be mugging for the math test tomorrow and the chem test on Thursday, but quite obviously, im slacking my head off. hahah. its weird... that everytime we happen to stay in the canteen, we'd see different people. its always the sec1 batch that stay back for funlaughterpeaceandjoy. and now i know why in sec1 we never ever see the sec3s or 4s there. hahah... and now, as we rush to squeeze out the most of the 24hours, the sec1s still can waste their time wandering around the school. hahah. its kinda interesting huh?

was writing the Chinese compo about 我认识这样的一个人 and i think it went quite well, considering i didnt stop and stone for too long. hahah. didnt understand the first question, so i was left with one. dont know how many thousand times i flipped through the dictionary. I MUST IMPROVE MY CHINESE VOCABULARY. MUST MUST MUST MUST MUST. and i will read the chinese newspaper now that mummy has decided to be nice and buy them on wednesdays and fridays cause they have specials then. like 星期五周报. and 大拇指. hahah... and to think i hated reading chinese stuff like 知识画报 and 知识报 hahah... and i see chinese in my blog! hahah. *remembers my failed attempt of a chinese blog* wheee.

maths tomorrow. im prepared to fail. heh heh. i should get myself into all the remedials! then i can learn moremoremoremoremore! wheeeee~ hahah. i think im mad. do you think im mad?

and i was writing the reading journal just now and i think i was very 不耐烦ed. cause my handwriting was crazy messy and not small, and i was pressing so hard on the paper that it almost tore. and i was writing quite... weird things there. hahah. about gaming. hmmm. anyways. wont waste time online gaming anymore, unless its to de-stress. (: and hmmm. im borededybored. cause no one's talking to me online. sadsadsadsadsad. heh. and i dont have any more emails to reply! waaaaahhhh. PCK is on now... final season or something. why do they call it final season? just leave it hanging or something and pick it up again when they feel like it! hmm. AND I SHALL LOVE ITALICS. just realised how nice it looks la. heeheee.

AND OBSOBSOBS IS COMING SOONSOONSOON! im excited, and yet im scared. obs... there WILL definately be more ghost stories right? and then it will be dark right? i shall bring something there. to hug so i can get to sleep. and by the time it comes back, it will be... ermm. brown! hahah. cause i HEARD from someone, we arent allowed to bathe or something. which is icky and disgusting, but OHWELLS. at least its not like NS or something. hahah. and to think i wanted to sign myself up for NS. stupid me. poor guys dont have a choice yeah? hahah. NS is like a LONGLONGLONG OBS. only icky-ier, and disgusting-er and there would be tooooo many guys. and i will freak out and die. heh.

and my sister wants me to buy jellybeans for her. cause she's addicted to POIFULL. hehheh. i shall have to go day&night to buy them for her then. forgot how much it costs though. oh and we barely had a dinner. it was charsiewpao and some chicken&cucumber kebab-like thing. mmm... i like charsiewpao. (: its NICE. (: the chicken was hot. and the cucumber cold. and it tasted... weird to say the least. but anyway. since when was anything ever normal? hahah. (:

ohwells. back to minesweeper i guess. (: and maybe thinking up another 10things to say to 10 people. or find some quiz somewhere to do (: see you all next time i remember to blog! (:

love you all!

heyylo people out there!

hahah. yes. dionne. this is for you to see. cause, you apparently think im going to ditch my blog? hahah. wheeee~ hahah. according to a poll that our el teacher did in class today, VERY FEW people use the comp on a regular basis. i mean. NORMALLY, the whole class would. in ours, its like. half?! hahah. and i feel so... ermm. weird? hahah. its almost as if everyone else is studying like crazy and im just. slacking my life away. ohwellllllllllllls. i feel like going utterly crazy and slapping everyone. hahah. but i guess id never get the chance to do that? HAHAH. but anyways. it would be fun. (:

rainrainrainrainrain. thats all its been doing the whole week. and for the next week... as the prediction goes... hahah. and the water pipe burst. and school cut our water at 2pm. so we had NO WATER! hahah. it was so cute la. they made the announcement and everyone was too busy laughing. cause all the teachers were like telling us, want to go toilet, GO NOW.! hahah.

hmm. todays monday. meaning tomorrow's tuesday. meaning! MEANINGMEANING THERES CHINESE COMPO TOMORROW. and meaning! MEANINGMEANING IM GOING TO DIE TOMORROW. saddening yeah? heh. too bad for me i guess. hahah. OHMY. suddenly all the squiggly red lines underlining my "typos" disappeared. thats freaky. almost as freaky as all the ghost stories msng told us. eeek. im still freaked out man. i want to do one of those write-to-anonymous-people-and-make-them-guess-who-im-writing-to thing again! its so fun. and its so easy! hahah... i shall. soon enough! look out for that la kkay? hahah.

i think i shall post. before all the rubbishyrubbish comes out cause im too hyper now.

love you all! (: